Life Back In Charlotte
Hello Lovelies,
It’s been three weeks since I returned to Charlotte after my summer in Charleston, and I’m finally starting to feel adjusted—settling into somewhat of a rhythm again. More than that, I’m starting to feel peace about being back.
When I first drove home at the beginning of the month, I was excited. I was ready to be back. But literally the very next day, I found myself crying—and not just once. For days at a time, I sat before the Lord asking, “Why do You have me here? It doesn’t feel the same. I feel out of church community. Friendships look different. You’re still pruning and cutting away parts of my old life.” Community has been such a big part of my walk with Christ these past two years, so the transition has been heavy. Lord willing I’ll share more about that season, but for now I’ll just say—I’m in the middle of it.
But quickly, the tears shifted. They went from “Why, Lord?” to “Thank You, Lord.” It didn’t take Him long to change my perspective, strengthen my trust, and remind me of His word. Ecclesiastes 7:10 has been ringing in my spirit: “Don’t say, ‘Why were the former days better than these?’ since it is not wise of you to ask this.”
This season may not look like what I imagined, but God is showing me that He is still here and still providing.
Over the summer, the Lord placed real estate photography on my heart. At first, I brushed it off—I’ve always loved taking pictures for myself, but I never imagined doing it professionally. Still, He gave me the green light, and since being back I’ve already completed a few shoots. It’s been fun and surprisingly fulfilling.
It makes me think of 1 Kings 17, when God used ravens to feed Elijah. His provision came in an unconventional way, but it was still provision. That’s what this feels like—the Lord providing in ways I never expected.
School, Business, and Vision
Grad school was rough at first. Adjusting back into the rhythm of papers, deadlines, and APA formatting was not easy, but I finally feel like I’m catching my stride. My grades are steadying, and I see God’s hand even in the discipline of being a student.
I’m also back to building with God Is So Kind & Co. One night, He gave me vision and direction for the business. It reminded me that even though MissToo Made It has closed, He isn’t finished with me. This new chapter is stretching me, but it’s also exciting.
Making My House a Home
One of the biggest adjustments has been simply being home. No vendor events to travel to, no storefront to manage, just me and the Lord—day in and day out. At first it felt strange, but then I began projects to make my home a home.
So after 3.5 years of homeownership, I’ve finally started. Rugs down, curtains up, coffee station set, accent walls here and there—and more projects loading. It feels symbolic, like even my physical space is aligning with this new season of rest, obedience, and trust.
Forgiveness and Deliverance
The Lord has also been dealing with my heart. These past few weeks, He’s been guiding me through forgiveness—learning to let go of offense, living in self-betrayal, and even the weight of my own disappointments.
Forgiveness isn’t optional; it’s necessary. It keeps you out of bondage. Jesus says in Matthew 6:14–15, “For if you forgive others their offenses, your heavenly Father will forgive you as well. But if you don’t forgive others, your Father will not forgive your offenses.”
There’s a level of freedom and intimacy with God that only comes when those walls come down. And little by little, I’m experiencing that freedom. GOD IS SO KIND.
After three weeks back in CLT, I can honestly say my tears have shifted—from grief over what I thought life would be, to joy and trust in the One who writes my story. Yes, life still costs me—obedience is costly. Closing MissToo Made It was costly. Letting go of visions and people I thought would always be here was costly. But the reward is so much greater: peace, intimacy with God, and the assurance that I am right where I’m supposed to be.
Psalm 126:5 reminds me, “Those who sow in tears will reap with shouts of joy.” That’s what this season feels like—sowing in tears, but trusting that joy is coming, because joy is already here in His presence.
So for now, I’ll keep sitting at His feet, honoring and obeying Him—whatever the cost.
Because truly…God is so kind.
With Love,
Jadesha M. Hair